Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Where it all starts for 2009
YEP WE WILL BE THERE GETTING READY FOR ALL THAT WILL HAPPEN IN THE UPCOMING YEAR AND SAYING GOODBYE TO ALL THE DRAMA OF 2008!
Friday, December 19, 2008
And the snow came down
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Rocking out in NYC
My favorite part of living in NYC is the last minute "What are you doing tonight?" call. It happened last night.. I caught the begining of Mike Krum, who sounded great and played a killer new song to start things off... then headed over to meet Emi at the Garden where we had great seats and rocked out to OASIS. Show was a little short and not as loud as we like it but they sang all the favorites and we had a blast! Back beat the word is on the street that the fire in your heart is out
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
MIKE KRUM - MERCURY LOUNGE
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
My way
Where do I start
Or maybe how
Was never scared to live
Like it was the end
the only day
we could ever be
Give it all
Smiling
Stumbling over
Unknown paths
learning to do it
better with less
Craziness
Don't think
I don't care
It's just my style
My choices are not always
what you define
as good
your wrong
is often my right
Gotta make these moves
Until I find my way
Hold your judgement
For I will let you be
Just as you were meant
Now how do I begin
this story to be told
all or part or maybe
just a poem
Or maybe how
Was never scared to live
Like it was the end
the only day
we could ever be
Give it all
Smiling
Stumbling over
Unknown paths
learning to do it
better with less
Craziness
Don't think
I don't care
It's just my style
My choices are not always
what you define
as good
your wrong
is often my right
Gotta make these moves
Until I find my way
Hold your judgement
For I will let you be
Just as you were meant
Now how do I begin
this story to be told
all or part or maybe
just a poem
Monday, December 8, 2008
Party Girl
I've been standing in the fire
Spinning round in cirlces
howling at the moon
I've been chasing dragon's
Searching for the darkness
all over the world
Knocking over bottles
Cashing in checks
yelling in the streets
Trying to calm the rage
Trying to numb the pain
Woke up in an ambulance
A dark hotel room
abandon car in the woods
On the floor of a bathroom
In another city
not sure where to exist
How we are even still here
My party girl will not leave
Stays till the last drink
She's crying on the bar
And I can't remember
Which way to send her home
Spinning round in cirlces
howling at the moon
I've been chasing dragon's
Searching for the darkness
all over the world
Knocking over bottles
Cashing in checks
yelling in the streets
Trying to calm the rage
Trying to numb the pain
Woke up in an ambulance
A dark hotel room
abandon car in the woods
On the floor of a bathroom
In another city
not sure where to exist
How we are even still here
My party girl will not leave
Stays till the last drink
She's crying on the bar
And I can't remember
Which way to send her home
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Color Globe
Go with me
Beyond the matter here
A grey sky
that pushes down
Find your light
add it to mine
Shoulder to shoulder
the world will
look brighter
We all need
Somebody
To be there
To understand
who we are
in our hearts
where we are
in our minds
How to pick us up
Wake us up
Shake up the colors
Show us the true world
Beyond the matter here
A grey sky
that pushes down
Find your light
add it to mine
Shoulder to shoulder
the world will
look brighter
We all need
Somebody
To be there
To understand
who we are
in our hearts
where we are
in our minds
How to pick us up
Wake us up
Shake up the colors
Show us the true world
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
YES WE CAN
Out of many
We are One
That while we breathe
We Hope
And where we are met with cynicism and doubts
And those who tell us that we can't
We will respond with that timeless creed
That sums up the spirit of a people:
YES WE CAN
Thank you
God bless you
And may God bless the United States of America.
BARACK OBAMA
PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA
We are One
That while we breathe
We Hope
And where we are met with cynicism and doubts
And those who tell us that we can't
We will respond with that timeless creed
That sums up the spirit of a people:
YES WE CAN
Thank you
God bless you
And may God bless the United States of America.
BARACK OBAMA
PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA
Monday, September 15, 2008
Think Light
It's up to you
To overcome
the darkness
that threatens
all you've worked for
this life
you've built
Don't be surprised
It will come quickly
to sink your smiles
Slouch your shoulders
take your light
Resist giving in
giving up
Know what helps you
keep the darkness
at bay
Infinite sadness
or happiness within
these are the choices
so wake up each day
and light up your soul
To overcome
the darkness
that threatens
all you've worked for
this life
you've built
Don't be surprised
It will come quickly
to sink your smiles
Slouch your shoulders
take your light
Resist giving in
giving up
Know what helps you
keep the darkness
at bay
Infinite sadness
or happiness within
these are the choices
so wake up each day
and light up your soul
Monday, August 25, 2008
Glow
Glad for you
Nothing better
Your lit up
Love in ur voice
Captivated
As it should be
Strange to see
To hear
her name
Spoken with more
reverance than mine
I must admit
Envy is not my word
It was easier before
to smile at you
to laugh with you
no longer your go to
someone else
will be with you
Distance equal's loss
for we will drift
as was meant to be
I am not yours
you are not mine
Keep your light
where I can see it
Balanced in the sky
Far from me
Nothing better
Your lit up
Love in ur voice
Captivated
As it should be
Strange to see
To hear
her name
Spoken with more
reverance than mine
I must admit
Envy is not my word
It was easier before
to smile at you
to laugh with you
no longer your go to
someone else
will be with you
Distance equal's loss
for we will drift
as was meant to be
I am not yours
you are not mine
Keep your light
where I can see it
Balanced in the sky
Far from me
Friday, August 22, 2008
Road Less
You make it a struggle
to be myself
Always testing what I say
The choices I have made
Your opinion
is not needed
I am not like you
You are frightened
cause there is no road
And I say good
this life
these views
give me what I need
to hold on
Never wanted
Anything but
freedom
To do what comes next
Feel my own thoughts
Write my own words
Creating space
between your judgement
and my heart
to be myself
Always testing what I say
The choices I have made
Your opinion
is not needed
I am not like you
You are frightened
cause there is no road
And I say good
this life
these views
give me what I need
to hold on
Never wanted
Anything but
freedom
To do what comes next
Feel my own thoughts
Write my own words
Creating space
between your judgement
and my heart
Monday, June 30, 2008
Sprinklers
Sunshine Summertime
that girl is fine
Spin in the streets
Shout for freedom
Laugh till you can't breathe
Walk in anywhere
Own the place
Keep a smile
on that beautiful face
Pick it up
Keep it positive
Change your thoughts
Give yourself a chance
to love
to succeed
to find happiness
Stop waiting to live
Find what gives you peace
And hold onto it
that girl is fine
Spin in the streets
Shout for freedom
Laugh till you can't breathe
Walk in anywhere
Own the place
Keep a smile
on that beautiful face
Pick it up
Keep it positive
Change your thoughts
Give yourself a chance
to love
to succeed
to find happiness
Stop waiting to live
Find what gives you peace
And hold onto it
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Walk Proud
Somedays I am surprised
to find these fears
exist within myself
Not the distance between
her body and mine
Other times these thoughts are solid
there is no space no place
My heart is not so strong as I say
These walls are painted with smiles
Much more fragile than I even know
Walking proud has lead me
to this hopeful place
With so much to loose
Somedays I don't trust here
Or there or me or you
the only cure for me
is more love
to find these fears
exist within myself
Not the distance between
her body and mine
Other times these thoughts are solid
there is no space no place
My heart is not so strong as I say
These walls are painted with smiles
Much more fragile than I even know
Walking proud has lead me
to this hopeful place
With so much to loose
Somedays I don't trust here
Or there or me or you
the only cure for me
is more love
Monday, June 16, 2008
Duel Hearts
I know you
Who you are and want to be
Who you were before
I know how you make your moves
The tone of your voice before you speak
The look in your eyes when you see
I know what makes you happy
What little things can bring you joy
How real you make each moment seem
I feel when you are close
But remind myself what it's like
When you disappear
I am in front of you now and can see
When you will stay and when you will go
Biding your time
I am your distraction
A place for your soul to rest
I stand here holding you
My hands tied with my heart
Seeing no one else pass me by
You watch and smile at them all
Looking for something more
I know if I hold too tight
You will push me away
I am stuck here
You go on
Without a backward glance
I know you
Your broken heart will shatter
What is left of mine
Who you are and want to be
Who you were before
I know how you make your moves
The tone of your voice before you speak
The look in your eyes when you see
I know what makes you happy
What little things can bring you joy
How real you make each moment seem
I feel when you are close
But remind myself what it's like
When you disappear
I am in front of you now and can see
When you will stay and when you will go
Biding your time
I am your distraction
A place for your soul to rest
I stand here holding you
My hands tied with my heart
Seeing no one else pass me by
You watch and smile at them all
Looking for something more
I know if I hold too tight
You will push me away
I am stuck here
You go on
Without a backward glance
I know you
Your broken heart will shatter
What is left of mine
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Empty Case
I'm always
how you need
here there anywhere
give my all
put a smile on her face
give that heart reason
find peace in a soul
never too much to ask
Case comes natural
give to you
perplexes some
not enough
for you plus me
dead end road
stop sign turns
back the same way
silence still
my heart and your sorrows
left here with me
cargo too hold
precious nothing
how could i think
your needing me
meant i could need you
never knew or recognized
you would send me
Back out on my own
not knowing i was gone
never crossed my mind
feel a little insane
this you me all
Empty
how you need
here there anywhere
give my all
put a smile on her face
give that heart reason
find peace in a soul
never too much to ask
Case comes natural
give to you
perplexes some
not enough
for you plus me
dead end road
stop sign turns
back the same way
silence still
my heart and your sorrows
left here with me
cargo too hold
precious nothing
how could i think
your needing me
meant i could need you
never knew or recognized
you would send me
Back out on my own
not knowing i was gone
never crossed my mind
feel a little insane
this you me all
Empty
Friday, April 4, 2008
Light the dark
Can you still hear me
At night in the dark
what I would say
the way my lips would move
the emotion through which
my story was told
holding up your truth
To mold these convictions
and allow myself
that I was meant to be
right there with you
that my love could
keep us safe
make it real
open your eyes
to light the dark
but in this silence
you are fading in
front of me
blowing away
with all that light
laughing and kissing
goodnight
On my way home
closer to the truth now
my heart speaks to me
I will take both
the light and the dark
At night in the dark
what I would say
the way my lips would move
the emotion through which
my story was told
holding up your truth
To mold these convictions
and allow myself
that I was meant to be
right there with you
that my love could
keep us safe
make it real
open your eyes
to light the dark
but in this silence
you are fading in
front of me
blowing away
with all that light
laughing and kissing
goodnight
On my way home
closer to the truth now
my heart speaks to me
I will take both
the light and the dark
Monday, February 25, 2008
Up to Now
February 1, 2008 - Friday
I’ve known
I've known sand filled beaches
and orange red skys
I've traveled through crowded streets
and stood on top of buildings
I've seen people with nothing smile
and those with everything cry
I've left all that I knew
to find more of myself
I've gone through losses
that would break most
I've known friendships that lasted a minute
and friendships that will exist forever
I've known winters too cold
and summers hot as hell
I've loved too hard
and been heartbroken
loved too little
and let others down
I've drank to the bottom of the bottle
and found it was not the only thing empty
I've stood on the edge of a cliff
and found a way to get down
I've been on the outside looking in
and then on the inside fighting
to get out
I've faced my fears
and found peace in my soul
I've given so much to some people
and barely anything at all to others
I've thought about giving up
then had the sun shine directly in my eyes
I've laughed more than I've cried
I've had many more good days than bad
I've been blessed
January 3, 2008 - Thursday
illumination
These thoughts are mine
It is up to me for them to be
I choose light over dark
Joy instead of heartache
A smile with each step
I walk alone but with many
There is no end in sight
Only vision of the road ahead
Is it me or you that brings us here
Fire and light can only be seen
If held in the right direction
Never backward always forward
In the shadows are those
who wait for us to fail
But this journey is mine
If you want to come along
Turn the light ahead
And help me lead the way
October 24, 2007 - Wednesday
hard rocks
When you are here with me
I can feel your heart beat
Taste your breath upon my neck
Your fingers in my hair
Know your lips upon my eyes
But when you are gone
The space between us
Grows with every day
You build up walls
To keep me out
Or to keep you in
I'm spinning round
Trying to reach you
Never the first nor the last
A little here and a little there
Just like waves crashing
I keep throwing myself
Hard against the rocks
Not wanting it to be over
My heart is caught there
And your indifference
Has me struggling
September 2, 2007 - Sunday
keep this
I want to meet with your mind
Get inside and see what moves you
Tugs at your soul
Opens and closes the doors
Where do I get in
Come on now and try to let me
Climb some walls for me baby
Pushing you over the edge
Levels jumping around
Touch me way down deep and
Give me something
I can fucking keep
Make it worth my time
Give me your smiles your moments
Fire it up in those eyes
Take out a little bit of hope
Leave it here with me
Fighting for your grind
Stand next to me in the street
In all the places you call yours
Pull them together with me
Put your trust in a thing called us
April 27, 2007 - Friday
without
I move with you
in you through you
under you
without you
looking back at the
scattered moments
you and me
memories dancing
feeling my heart beat
and my breath catch
then you are walking
and I am left tumbling
You build me up and
then break me down
I recover and move away
but you keep drawing me back
Wanting more time
when do you know
if the fire will burn you
or give you everything you need
this feeling is strong
trying to get past it
move around it
ignore it
or maybe I am just
waiting for it
You are here but not
reaching out and pulling back
you surround me
as you leave me on the floor
May 6, 2006 - Saturday
music for the way
Hold in the need
your thoughts are words
Tread with light steps
Under the bridge
increase your speed
Silence rings in the air
but not in your ears
Torn up sheets
and brokedown beats
how many lights red then green
Toast your friends
and hold them close
Spill a few drinks
palm trees and benches
Put it down then turn around
enjoy the view
Maybe its in the lights
or the smoke from your cigarette
the wind will take it away
Beware of the crack that catches your heel
running down the walk
narrow streets and strangers
danger whispers with a voice
memory's of laughter
bring a quick smile
Lazy summer in the sand
feel the concrete below your feet
in a day then the night
Travel a few hours
bring a new number
throw back some soul
Along for the show
April 17, 2006 - Monday
wanderer
Back in my corner of the world
Stare down upon the stretching lights
Wonder if this is the right place
If I am in the right waiting line
Gaze ahead at recycled days
Restlessness moves my soul
Plan a trip that comes and goes
Settle down in this life
Or sell it all and search for awhile
Something new somewhere sunny
Keep these dreams or look for more
Know somedays the light is here
but others bring pain from the crowds
I am good for now
Seems to be the only answer I find
What do I want with these years
Is it real, will it last
If not my eyes will be much older
And I may have lost this need
To search to create to find
To laugh out loud and
re-tell a story
but a whisper says
put in the time to make a life
or there will be no home
to call your own
January 6, 2006 - Friday
soul coughing
sit in silence on the couch
flick the lighter till it works
bloodshot eyes see no glory
fill your lungs till it hurts
wait for the smoke to hit you right
Distant emotion is justified
look up the street and then down
figure out the way to go
pick it up and hold it close
wasted moments turn to years
let the smoke surround you
cough out the memory
hobby turned to habit
fight to be above the struggle
instead your soul is down
so you close your eyes
to the early warning light
March 27, 2006 - Monday
southern shore
Go back to the place before
roll down the windows and turn up the music
look for the things you used to know
the places you used to go
sit on the beach and soak in the sun
run your fingers through the sand
wait for the feeling to come
drive along your old streets
Watching the ghost of yourself
and those you used to know
memories of a different life
smile at the people with familiar faces
running through the same conversations
wait for the feeling to come
Say goodbye and fly away
stare out the window of the plane
watch the swamp turn to ocean
letting go of what was
take the long way to Now
walk through the busy streets
feel the peace in your heart
there is no going back
for home is no longer
on a southern shore
March 20, 2006 - Monday
design
Her life was torn before
the fabric running back
was filled with burns and holes
Dreams balanced slipping through
The ashes that fell from those around
and then from her own hand
left her barely hanging on
Erasing the unhappiness
with a mind fading to black
The stitching started
with someone
who cared enough to see the damage
Tough enough to offer a choice
take it or leave it
and she reached out
The fabric warped with scars
grew stronger with each stitch
and though the design was
woven by chaos
It grew steady enough
to hold up her life
and the hopes of those who loved her
March 9, 2006 - Thursday
city life
Traveling light
through these crowded streets
jumping over puddles
trying to catch the time
Making wrong turns and
ending up in new places
filled with so many unfamiliar faces
Play a song on the jukebox and
stay until they ask you not to go
Chase the sun that filters
down through the buildings
Search for some warmth
Lean into a strangers conversation
but keep your opinion to your self
Below you graffiti clad walls
stretch away from the city
Escape somedays to tree lined roads
and waves in the ocean
but as the skyline looms before you
Hold onto the excitment
as you journey down the path ahead
March 4, 2006 - Saturday
cold
cement floor painted grey
four walls surrounding you
locked inside
no future to look forward to
only a past to replay
regret seeping through your bones
wishing for mail
praying to turn back the pages
but no one is left to hear
the sound of angry voices
and hopeless people echo
through the long corridor
same routine day in and out
trying to get stronger with no books
just weights and people who push
a life you loath down your throat
how did it turn out this way
you ask yourself as you lay in the dark
on a mattress that offers no comfort
never seeing the smiles of your last love
he grows up only knowing the story
of you and of him
the friends you had left long ago
confused with cloudy thoughts
too sad for them to bear
memory's are pushed into the black
and its like you were never here
For this life cannot be given back
once it has gone cold
January 23, 2006 - Monday
honestly
Within this heart lies an area of grey
Where did you go - what did you do
Have you become a shifted memory
instead of someone real
Did I switch it in my mind
purposely leaving you behind.
Am I honest when I think of you
Fighting then loving
Hating then running
Going back in total denial.
I stopped asking what I wanted for me
Hoping to be what you wanted for you.
Pushing through your unfaithfulness
Confessing a need for me that echoes
the voice inside my head.
Confused I reach for you
and can't let go
On the edge
holding my breath
not moving forward
Trapped inside
An us that is choking
The person I wanted to be
no longer looking in the mirror
December 26, 2005 - Monday
Here with me
And then you were there
breathing the same air as me
You held my heart in your hand
and I tried to let you know
With a smile and a whisper
I moved my fingers across your forehead
And the look in your eyes
twisted the hope in my chest
Let me be with you in the
early morning light
Without fear or selfishness or regret
For I have traveled through this life alone
and to have you here with me
takes my breath away
I’ve known
I've known sand filled beaches
and orange red skys
I've traveled through crowded streets
and stood on top of buildings
I've seen people with nothing smile
and those with everything cry
I've left all that I knew
to find more of myself
I've gone through losses
that would break most
I've known friendships that lasted a minute
and friendships that will exist forever
I've known winters too cold
and summers hot as hell
I've loved too hard
and been heartbroken
loved too little
and let others down
I've drank to the bottom of the bottle
and found it was not the only thing empty
I've stood on the edge of a cliff
and found a way to get down
I've been on the outside looking in
and then on the inside fighting
to get out
I've faced my fears
and found peace in my soul
I've given so much to some people
and barely anything at all to others
I've thought about giving up
then had the sun shine directly in my eyes
I've laughed more than I've cried
I've had many more good days than bad
I've been blessed
January 3, 2008 - Thursday
illumination
These thoughts are mine
It is up to me for them to be
I choose light over dark
Joy instead of heartache
A smile with each step
I walk alone but with many
There is no end in sight
Only vision of the road ahead
Is it me or you that brings us here
Fire and light can only be seen
If held in the right direction
Never backward always forward
In the shadows are those
who wait for us to fail
But this journey is mine
If you want to come along
Turn the light ahead
And help me lead the way
October 24, 2007 - Wednesday
hard rocks
When you are here with me
I can feel your heart beat
Taste your breath upon my neck
Your fingers in my hair
Know your lips upon my eyes
But when you are gone
The space between us
Grows with every day
You build up walls
To keep me out
Or to keep you in
I'm spinning round
Trying to reach you
Never the first nor the last
A little here and a little there
Just like waves crashing
I keep throwing myself
Hard against the rocks
Not wanting it to be over
My heart is caught there
And your indifference
Has me struggling
September 2, 2007 - Sunday
keep this
I want to meet with your mind
Get inside and see what moves you
Tugs at your soul
Opens and closes the doors
Where do I get in
Come on now and try to let me
Climb some walls for me baby
Pushing you over the edge
Levels jumping around
Touch me way down deep and
Give me something
I can fucking keep
Make it worth my time
Give me your smiles your moments
Fire it up in those eyes
Take out a little bit of hope
Leave it here with me
Fighting for your grind
Stand next to me in the street
In all the places you call yours
Pull them together with me
Put your trust in a thing called us
April 27, 2007 - Friday
without
I move with you
in you through you
under you
without you
looking back at the
scattered moments
you and me
memories dancing
feeling my heart beat
and my breath catch
then you are walking
and I am left tumbling
You build me up and
then break me down
I recover and move away
but you keep drawing me back
Wanting more time
when do you know
if the fire will burn you
or give you everything you need
this feeling is strong
trying to get past it
move around it
ignore it
or maybe I am just
waiting for it
You are here but not
reaching out and pulling back
you surround me
as you leave me on the floor
May 6, 2006 - Saturday
music for the way
Hold in the need
your thoughts are words
Tread with light steps
Under the bridge
increase your speed
Silence rings in the air
but not in your ears
Torn up sheets
and brokedown beats
how many lights red then green
Toast your friends
and hold them close
Spill a few drinks
palm trees and benches
Put it down then turn around
enjoy the view
Maybe its in the lights
or the smoke from your cigarette
the wind will take it away
Beware of the crack that catches your heel
running down the walk
narrow streets and strangers
danger whispers with a voice
memory's of laughter
bring a quick smile
Lazy summer in the sand
feel the concrete below your feet
in a day then the night
Travel a few hours
bring a new number
throw back some soul
Along for the show
April 17, 2006 - Monday
wanderer
Back in my corner of the world
Stare down upon the stretching lights
Wonder if this is the right place
If I am in the right waiting line
Gaze ahead at recycled days
Restlessness moves my soul
Plan a trip that comes and goes
Settle down in this life
Or sell it all and search for awhile
Something new somewhere sunny
Keep these dreams or look for more
Know somedays the light is here
but others bring pain from the crowds
I am good for now
Seems to be the only answer I find
What do I want with these years
Is it real, will it last
If not my eyes will be much older
And I may have lost this need
To search to create to find
To laugh out loud and
re-tell a story
but a whisper says
put in the time to make a life
or there will be no home
to call your own
January 6, 2006 - Friday
soul coughing
sit in silence on the couch
flick the lighter till it works
bloodshot eyes see no glory
fill your lungs till it hurts
wait for the smoke to hit you right
Distant emotion is justified
look up the street and then down
figure out the way to go
pick it up and hold it close
wasted moments turn to years
let the smoke surround you
cough out the memory
hobby turned to habit
fight to be above the struggle
instead your soul is down
so you close your eyes
to the early warning light
March 27, 2006 - Monday
southern shore
Go back to the place before
roll down the windows and turn up the music
look for the things you used to know
the places you used to go
sit on the beach and soak in the sun
run your fingers through the sand
wait for the feeling to come
drive along your old streets
Watching the ghost of yourself
and those you used to know
memories of a different life
smile at the people with familiar faces
running through the same conversations
wait for the feeling to come
Say goodbye and fly away
stare out the window of the plane
watch the swamp turn to ocean
letting go of what was
take the long way to Now
walk through the busy streets
feel the peace in your heart
there is no going back
for home is no longer
on a southern shore
March 20, 2006 - Monday
design
Her life was torn before
the fabric running back
was filled with burns and holes
Dreams balanced slipping through
The ashes that fell from those around
and then from her own hand
left her barely hanging on
Erasing the unhappiness
with a mind fading to black
The stitching started
with someone
who cared enough to see the damage
Tough enough to offer a choice
take it or leave it
and she reached out
The fabric warped with scars
grew stronger with each stitch
and though the design was
woven by chaos
It grew steady enough
to hold up her life
and the hopes of those who loved her
March 9, 2006 - Thursday
city life
Traveling light
through these crowded streets
jumping over puddles
trying to catch the time
Making wrong turns and
ending up in new places
filled with so many unfamiliar faces
Play a song on the jukebox and
stay until they ask you not to go
Chase the sun that filters
down through the buildings
Search for some warmth
Lean into a strangers conversation
but keep your opinion to your self
Below you graffiti clad walls
stretch away from the city
Escape somedays to tree lined roads
and waves in the ocean
but as the skyline looms before you
Hold onto the excitment
as you journey down the path ahead
March 4, 2006 - Saturday
cold
cement floor painted grey
four walls surrounding you
locked inside
no future to look forward to
only a past to replay
regret seeping through your bones
wishing for mail
praying to turn back the pages
but no one is left to hear
the sound of angry voices
and hopeless people echo
through the long corridor
same routine day in and out
trying to get stronger with no books
just weights and people who push
a life you loath down your throat
how did it turn out this way
you ask yourself as you lay in the dark
on a mattress that offers no comfort
never seeing the smiles of your last love
he grows up only knowing the story
of you and of him
the friends you had left long ago
confused with cloudy thoughts
too sad for them to bear
memory's are pushed into the black
and its like you were never here
For this life cannot be given back
once it has gone cold
January 23, 2006 - Monday
honestly
Within this heart lies an area of grey
Where did you go - what did you do
Have you become a shifted memory
instead of someone real
Did I switch it in my mind
purposely leaving you behind.
Am I honest when I think of you
Fighting then loving
Hating then running
Going back in total denial.
I stopped asking what I wanted for me
Hoping to be what you wanted for you.
Pushing through your unfaithfulness
Confessing a need for me that echoes
the voice inside my head.
Confused I reach for you
and can't let go
On the edge
holding my breath
not moving forward
Trapped inside
An us that is choking
The person I wanted to be
no longer looking in the mirror
December 26, 2005 - Monday
Here with me
And then you were there
breathing the same air as me
You held my heart in your hand
and I tried to let you know
With a smile and a whisper
I moved my fingers across your forehead
And the look in your eyes
twisted the hope in my chest
Let me be with you in the
early morning light
Without fear or selfishness or regret
For I have traveled through this life alone
and to have you here with me
takes my breath away
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